What to write.......

My blog is more of a personal journal for me.....its how I process what I am feeling...really it is cheap therapy. I don't mean to offend anyone with what I write. I am such a people pleaser that its just not in my nature. Even in my family I have always played the role of mediator.....between my parents when they were (are) fighting with my sister and my parents or me and my sister. I will always admit fault, even if I have none just for the sake of keeping the peace. I know there is a saying out there "you can please some of the people some of the time but you will never please all of the people all of the time."....yeah I know but I try anyway. I think I have a major insecurity in that area. I want people to like me.....and I want people who are around me to be happy. I think that I carry a lot of guilt especially with my boys. I think that they are spoiled because I can't stand to see them sad. I know that its not good and don't get me wrong I do discipline and my kids are pretty well behaved but if they want something and its reasonable I try and get it for them. Anyway perhaps I should stick to a paper and pencil to write down my thoughts.....it's just not the same I guess. If what I write offends anyway I apologize....its really not intentional nor in my nature.....sometimes when feelings get bottled up for so long when they finally come out they just come out wrong. Especially when so much emotional pain is involved. Well I guess this therapy session has comed to an end. I feel somewhat better and really do believe that blogs are theraputic....guess each person's blog is unique and personal to them.....if you use your blog in a similar way I'd love to know.....send me a link.